YOUR PROMISE


Love at home burns low, some say,

And distance calms the longing flame.

Both I’ve tried, in none found cure.

But know: to be near is better than far,

And know: to be near is nowhere on earth

When the one you love has forgotten your face.

It was you that broke your promise, man,

Delighting my taunters, familiarly fond,

It was you that stripped me, let me down.

A butt to be jeered, while you could abscond,

Could words draws blood, the talk, the tales

Would have left my body a living wound.


WHERE IS HE?


Where is he, where is my soul’s delight?

My North, my West, my South and East?

Not here with you where nothing is conceived.

He’s not here, but where has he gone?

No compassing aroma dwells where nothing is conceived.

I look here. I look both up and down,

I cannot see even the shadow of his beard.

O believers, only speak to me!

Tell me where he’s gone who shone like blue flame in my conceiving eye.

Shout out his name and your echoing bones shall never crumble in the receiving grave.

You who kissed his hand are blessed.

Even in death your lips shall remain as sweet as grapes.

And should I? Should I be grateful?

For the beauty of his face or the sweet severity of his soul?

His lucid soul, no longer sketched in memory of his body – I do not care.

My love revolves like the planets around the storm of his sun.

I am calling, calling out for Shams.

I chant familiar names of friendship.

Lighten our dark grief, enliven the ears’ lassitude with the energy of his name.


DIE


Die, die, expire in love,

From your votive death new life is born.

Die, die, fearlessly die, Rise anew like green shoots, and seize the heights.
Die, expire in love.
Die, die, un-peel your skin,

Ecape the jail of the bones.

Take a spade, dig yourself out,

Break down the cell and breathe like a king.
Die, die, bathe in the fire,

Of beauty in love,

Astonish all lovers.
Silence breathes, fomenting death,

While we cling to the debris of life,

While we flee the dark heart of silent night to die.


UNDER A SCORCHING SKY


Will you hear me tell the news of distress
Or content yourself with reports received?
Endlessly, under a scorching sky,
Up and down the land I have marched.
Our desert crying out for help,
Can give no rain to our stricken town.
Cry
Many’s the widow roaming the squares,
The orphan, suffering almost blind,
Calling you, calling, choking its’ last
As if blighted by demon or hurt by man,
Looking to you for a father now,
Like a nestling, unfledged, that cannot fly.


HABIB


I long for night,

Your arms to hold me tight.

Each day, it seems so endless,

I live for your smile and soft caress.


TAKE HEED


I will only to an open heart a story tell,

Listen or your heart be lost in hell.

Take heed, attend, and you will know –

Blind greed, it sucks you in its’ undertow.

The lust of blind possession rules the heart,

The lust of rank and place keeps you apart

Like falling hair it robs the eyes of light.

Greed suckles for it’s young with grasping spite.


BURNING LIPS


Again with burning lips I swore an oath In last night’s heart.

I confess with sigh again I swore an oath

On your ruby blood. I swore that I would fix my longing gaze

On your chaste smile. I swore that even struck I would not flinch

From your cruel blade.

My faith in you would rise both green and strong

Again unscathed.

My suffering heart is torn from you

Which none can cure but you,

You cast me like an ingot into fire, I glow for you.

I swear that I am dust, dry powder rising from your path,

As hapless atom, a circling world that’s drawn to you,

I just retrace your wake.


WHERE YOU DWELL


Where you dwell is dear to my sight,

A celestial city bedecked with light.

In whatever corner you are found,

Whether small needle’s eye, is holy ground.

Wherever the rainbow of your face alights,

Be it dank gorge of well, you make it paradise.

With presence in hell a heaven’s discerned,

The rigour of prison to a lover’s garden turned.

The devils’ chamber with you glows with delight,

Your absence makes beauty horror, it widows my sight.


MAGIC SCREED

The river is a page of parchment white
The breeze, that author sage, there loves to write.
And when the magic screed is finished fair,
The bough leans down to read his message there.

SEEK

Seek to replace the lead of your eyes
With a living ear which learns to die.
For sacred words too fine to pierce frost
Of blind hearts, dwell in hearts with light embossed.
The devil insinuates the hearts which just lie
As crooked feet only crooked shoes try.
Intone sacred words and ancient sounds
With mechanical tick of a clock expound
For a fool words will fall on barren ground
Even if you mint them on the willing page,
Even if you speak them slowly like the sage.
Oh sinner! The devil may just take you on your word,
But wisdom’s too wise – by you it’s not heard.

LISTEN

Listen, oh listen to my plaintive cry,
Listen to my longing, or else I die.
From the sweet home of bed I was torn,
So my pain and longing was born
Listen to my longing cry, Listen, or else I die
With so many secrets I sing aloud,
But none sees nor hears in this crowd.
Oh, for a friend to know my burning state
That our souls may entwine and contemplate.
The flame of love discourses in me
And the wine of Love so enforces me.
Do you wish to know the fire, the flow?
Listen, then you will know.
Listen, oh listen to my plaintive cry,
Listen, to my longing.
Do you wish to know the fire, the flow,
Listen to my longing cry,
Listen, or else I die.

BUTHAINA

Memories crowded back at the place,
And every question fell on a pall, silence loomed.
To patterns ran, like faded brocade or hurried scrawl.
I stopped my mount, the tears welled up,
For lovers forever had parted then.
I remembered Buthaina, a long time past.
Days lost and won, and eyes that shone.


MYSTRA


Discrete language.

Why have you forsaken me now?


INVOCATION


Discrete language.


RUN WITH ME


Hear me, like a whispering leaf by night,

Hold me, as the hills call again for life

And how the trees call, “Run with me”

Touch me with the magical mist-like waves,

Cool me, like the spray of the words they crave,

nly when the sea cries, “Run with me”.

Fill me with the heat of the chase of fear,

Hungry, I’ll be waiting to snare your tears,

Birds cry as they soar above, “Run with me”.


SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE


Biri, biri birshey, birshey.

Bir yerde, bir yerde, bir yerde.

Biri, birsini.

(Something, somewhere, someone.) Turkish


LIVING DEATH


I am thin, I am delicate within,

I am wan, I am frail, so anaemic and so pale,

I am cool, I am cold, and I need someone to hold.

I am skin, I am bone

And my heart is slowly turning to stone.

But I believe in love, all night long.

I am white ‘cause I only sleep at night,

When I creep from my crypt

When the moon is fully lit.

Living death with this curse

And an overwhelming thirst,

As I drain to sustain,

Feel the ecstasy beyond the pain.

‘Cause I believe in love, all night long.

You are strong, you are warm,

You are braver than the storm,

I am weak, I deceive to fulfil primeval greed,

I am tied to my fate –

You alone can drive the stake in my heart.

But I believe in love, all night long.

I will kill for the thrill, I’ll manipulate your will,

I will tease and enchant

'Til your senses are enhanced,

As these lips, fully red,

Like a vein that’s newly bled,

Grant your need to be free,

As you come to immortality.

‘Cause I believe in love, all night long.


ARCANUM


After the rain, after the storm,

My love will find me purer than Spring.

Cloud upon shadow, shadow is lifting,

Lighten like sun, clearer than lies.
Arcanum

Breath of a whisper, whisper is calling

Grow to your cries, surer than death.

After the rain, after the dawn,

My love will now seem clearer than lies.

Arcanum


WHEN THE LOVE HAS GONE


Sumer is icumen in, lhude sing cuccu.

Hope will be lost in the wind,

Peace will be torn from within,

Words that once glistened with jade, fade,

When the love has gone.
Pride will be sliced to the bone,

Dreams will mean nothing alone,

This is despair, now you’re not there,

Vows that are searching for shade,

Now the love has gone.
Time, time is my only friend,

Time, stay by my side

Now the love has gone.
Grief sinking deep in the sea,

Rage yearning just to be free,

Only your name fills me with shame,

Open my eyes, let me see,

Now the love has gone.


DREAM OF CONSTANTINE


Discrete language
All you want and all you need Is there before you,

All you can be, all you’ll find Is what you yearn for.


VOYAGE OF BYZAS


Discrete language


WHISPER


Why does truth ignore the proof

When it’s whispered in your ear?

Why do lies seem twice their size

When they’re whispered in your ear?

Why are dreams not what they seem

When they’re whispered in your ear?

You’re forever in my mind.
Do you hear the voice of fear

Like a whisper in your ear?

Does it say you have to stay,

With a whisper in your ear?

So why am I a distant cry

When I whisper in your ear?

You’re forever in my mind.
See the dawn spring like a fawn,

With a whisper in your ear.

Hold me near, don’t let the fear

Be a whisper in your ear,

Are you true, as I to you,

When I whisper in your ear?
You’re forever in my mind.


WILL YOU STILL BE WAITING?


Will you still be waiting for me

‘Til the end of time

Will you still be waiting for me,

Will you still be mine?

Though the days are never ending

While I’m far from home,

And the nights are even longer

As we sleep alone.

Keep the dream alive, love,

Keep the dream alive.

Will you still be waiting for me

When the cold wind blows,

And will you still be waiting

Even when your spirit’s low?

I had to seek the far horizon

And the land beyond,

To watch the mountains rise before me

Like they’ve just been born.
Keep the dream alive, love,

Keep the dream alive.
Will you still be waiting for me

As the sky turns grey,

And will you still be waiting

Even when I’ve lost my way?

Though the path is long and winding

And the stars are few,

And the ocean, brimming fiercely

Tries to drown my view,
I’ll keep the dream alive, love,

I’ll keep the dream alive.
Will you still be waiting for me

When the sun has cooled,

And when the moon is veiled in darkness

Will you still recall

How the precious moments sparkled

Like a jewel of light,

And the flame of memory burning

Long into the night,
To keep the dream alive, love,

Keep the dream alive?
I wished that you’d be waiting for me,

More than love would know.

The longing and the endless yearning

Only seemed to grow.

And has the dream forever faded

Like the distant shore,

And will the mountain’s shadow haunt me,

Like your love before?

I kept the dream alive, love,

I kept the dream alive.


HE’S MY SAVIOUR


In the distance, he rides a stallion bold,

Like the Prince of Darkness, freeing my soul.

Desert nights only dream what we see,

Lonely nights, soon I’ll be free,
‘Cause he’s my saviour, he’s my love.
With his sword of freedom and clarion call, He’ll avenge the shadows of whispering walls. Desert sands only burn by day, Fearless hands now guide my way,

‘Cause he’s my saviour, he’s my love.

YET ANOTHER DAY


All I see is you,

But all I see is something like you.

So how can I believe my eyes?

And in my canvas world,

The brushes highlight more than an impression,

But through the palette’s monochrome I know it’s you.
And through the light and shade

There has to be a new perspective,

As if the lines are drawn by your smile.

So every colour speaks

With mellow hues, like distant rainbows,

And like a silhouette of love,

It will not fade, never fade.
And another day,

Full of my old delusions,

Yet another day, lost.

And another day

Paints a new illusion of you.
And so I turn to pastel dreams;

Your image stays forever new.

But with those vivid eyes I sense you disapprove,

‘Cause you know;
It’s another day,

Full of my old delusions,

Yet another day, lost.

And another day

Paints a new illusion of you.


DON’T BELIEVE


Don’t believe that it’s an ordinary day,

It’s just a lonely echo cry:

“You’ll never be free

To live, to love”.

And I know it seems an ordinary day,

But you’ve left it all behind,

Like you’ve never been there.
I love you.
And you thought it was an ordinary day,

When each minute seemed an hour,

But you have to believe

That the love that I give

Is for evermore.

I know that I can’t really find a way,

They’re only words you’ve heard before,

But if I tell you again, I can make you forget

That you’ve ever been hurt.
I’ll never leave you,

You’re a love that’s flying high,

I’ll never leave you,

You’re a love that’s so alive,

I’ll never leave you,

Together we will touch the sky.


CALLING


My love has called my name, calling.

My love, he has called my name, calling.

And his voice is so sweet to me,

Hypnotise like golden eyes

That so could melt my heart.

Every word inspires the breeze

To carry love’s message home for free,

But it’s only for me.

My love will catch me if I fall, falling.

My love will help me fly the dawn, soaring.
And his arms are more than strength to me,

Make me sway like night and day

When the world was born.

Each embrace inspires the moon

To lighten the stars anew,

But oh, only if they knew.

My love, he is calling.

PULSE OF A PRAYER


And he sits and he waits

And he thinks of a day.

And the calm is the maze

Where he’s losing his way.
Forgotten by psychiatry,

Exiled from society,

Dismissed by time.

And the air will obscure

What he knows of his mind,

But the hush of his gaze

Masquerades as a sign.
And he sits and he waits,

At the edge of his stare,

And inside, in disguise,

Is the pulse of a prayer. Why?


WEEP NO MORE


Weep no more, I’ll soon be back.

And I’ll be knocking at your door,

But like I’ve never done before,

So weep no more.
Weep no more, my love,

I’m coming home to you,

I know I never should have left,

But sometimes we don’t know what’s best for us,

So weep no more.
And you knew that you’d miss me so badly,

And I knew that I couldn’t stay away.

Why must it take so much heartache, dear,

For us to learn our lesson?
And you knew that you’d miss me so badly,

And you knew that you couldn’t stay away.

But now I’m here wiping a tear-drop,

We can admit we were foolish,

Foolish, foolish love.

So come here, and weep no more my love,

My arms are waiting for you.


CHA NO YU (Revisited)


Make me green tea

With ceremonial grace.

Bamboo spoon, now it’s noon,

Stir, then be ready to taste.
Cha no yu – water, spirit of life.
Tea green, now seen

By the inscrutable eyes,

Blend with care, calm their stare,

Soon you’ll be almost as wise.
Every move, still to prove

Zen of truth and green tea.
Cha no yu – wakaru Seimei no gensoku,

Cha no yu, wakaru Seimei no yakusoku.
(Hot water of tea – to understand

The source of life.

Hot water of tea – to understand

The promise of life.)


ONLY YOU


Only you, who live to remember,

Only you, who were there to see,

How they came in the still of the night,

You saw it all

Only you, who saw each fire burning,

Know how it felt to walk on broken glass.

We must bear witness to this, as if we were there,

For only you.
Only you recall their faces,

Only you can still hear their cries,

So we must bear witness for you, as if we were there,

For only you.


IT COULD BE YOU


And it’s a life, and it’s impossible,

And it’s a lie, and that’s the truth.

And it’s a life, well that’s debatable,

But try to cry, and you’ll be mute.
It could be you.
And it’s a life, and it’s contemptible,

Don’t wonder why who is to blame,

And when you’re high and life is whimsical,

A silent cry might then exclaim,
It could be you.

And it’s a life, and it’s lamentable,

You have a voice, don’t turn away.

And as a life, it’s not immutable,

So it’s absurd to sit and pray.
I’d give my life for you, I’d give my life,

If I was true.


ALL I HAVE


All I have, I have to give to you,

All I am, I am for you.

Lay by me, through the night.
All I feel, I feel for you.

All I see, I see in you, it’s you.

Lay by me, through the night.


BRAIN


I’m at one with this machine,

Not adjacent to its’ clean form, so pristine.

I am within.
It’s a cytoskeleton hell,

Firing neurons from each cell,

Plunging deep inside the well

Of my unconsciousness.
Brain, tease me,

Brain, feed me,

Brain, lead me on.

And my eyes, they will confirm,

As the senses baste the burn, cool, with each turn.

I am complete.
And the resonating scream

Emphasises just one theme, strong, tall and lean,

I am the source of your life force.

FAR AWAY


Far away, Far away,

Grey the birds,

Crouched on the island sand,

They look like death to me.

Can you see,

They can sense the fear. Hold me near.
Far away, Take me there,

Far from their evil stare,

Waiting to take my soul,

Devour it whole,

Eyes that pierce the skin. Don’t let them in.


I’VE WOKEN TO YOUR SMILE


I’ve woken to your smile

Each day, each morning.

I’ve woken to your smile,

My love. I’ve woken to your smile.
I’ve woken to your frown,

So pained, With frustration on your brow,

Clear to read. But, I’ve woken to your smile.
And for that smile, I’ll stay,

To comfort and soothe all I can.

But though I’m here now to hold you,

I’m holding a shell, a shell of a man.
I’ve been woken by your sighs of grieving,

‘Cause even in your sleep

You remember.

But, I’ve woken to your smile.
I’ve woken to your tears

As they fall on me,

And how I know they barely show

What cries inside.
But, I’ve woken to your smile.


MIRROR


She lies so still,

Life is passing by,

Why has she lost her will?
Mirror, reflecting her breath,

Remember, sleep is the image of death.
How long could dreams wait?

Song, inspiration to give,

With so much to live For.
Night turns to day,

Has she lost consciousness,

Or will she find a reason to stay?
So cold, minus ten,

And a bottle of gin

Will help her begin again.


THE SHADOW


Out of my heart steps the shadow,

It takes to the long dusty road,

And with worries, It scurries,

Not knowing yet which way to go.
Out of my heart steps the shadow,

But the dusty road’s ruinous aim,

Unrelenting, cruel tormenting,

Is to force it home, withered and lame.
Out of my heart stepped the shadow,

On the road that is dusted with fear,

And now ragged, and haggard,

It staggers persistently near.
Out of my heart fell the shadow,

And the road, ever dusty, contrived

To be trying, conspiring,

Hurling searing dry sparks in my eyes.


ICICLE DAWN


Freeze my heart, like snow and frost,

Chill my blood with love that’s lost.
Icicle dawn, Icicle dawn,

Rain never falls where Arctic ice rules.
Snow-flake tears, like crystal ice,

Cold as quartz they pierce my eyes.
Deep ravines from old ice-floes,

Hard the soul that sleeps in snow.


HOPE DEFERRED


The papers signed,

So there’s no reason left to stay here with you.

The papers signed, and there is nothing left to say,

So there’s no reason left to stay. Hope deferred.
Remembered tears, remembered kiss,

Until the sun forgot to shine, Oh, jealous moon.

But pain remains, to haunt the emptiness inside,

To tear the wounds that try to hide as they heal.

The memory dulls each time we fought until we cried,

In vain we thought that love survives

Through despair, ‘Til the end,

Were we wrong, were we right?
The papers signed,

And there is so much left to say.

But reasons deeper not to stay. Hope deferred.


OBSESSION


I know he’ll see that he’s for me.

I now he’s seeing and he’s learning.
He’ll realise that hidden vibes

Are being sent, through love and yearning.
And yes, I’ll wait, ‘cause this is fate,

There’s no escape from what’s intended.
And it’s not strange to feel this way,

Though obsession maybe rules my day,

I just have to get him soon, and make him stay.
And when I do, he’ll love me too,

Just knowing this is my incentive.
It may be so, I hardly know.

Am I deranged, or just inventive?
But it’s not strange to feel this way,

Though obsession maybe rules my very day,

I just have to get him soon, and make him stay.


TEMPTING THE SEAS


She wakes in his arms,

With night more than a dream.

The sun is liquid gold, melting the dawn.
Love with a breeze, tempting the seas.
Deck sways, caravel sails bleached, quiver with life.

Morning is breathing too, drinking the mist.
Thrill me slowly, East wind, sultry,

It’s pure enchantment – as
He pours coconut milk and sings smoother than silk.

They know that love should be

Rousing the wind and the sea.


SCORPION HEART


There’s the worm, there’s the snail,

There’s the sting in the tail of the scorpion heart.
Scorn the free, mock the just,

Freeze the laugh, tease with lust

And the scorpion heart.
Seize the earth, bleed the gale,

Bite the snow, drive the nail to the scorpion heart.
Twist the stake, pierce the crust,

Spill the corpse, dust to dust

Of the scorpion heart.
Spew the blood, chew the brain,

Drag the spleen, nag the pain of the scorpion heart.


CHA NO YU


Make me green tea

With ceremonial grace.

Bamboo spoon, now it’s noon,

Stir, then be ready to taste.
Cha no yu – water, spirit of life.
Tea green, now seen

By the inscrutable eyes,

Blend with care, calm their stare,

Soon you’ll be almost as wise.
Every move, still to prove

Zen of truth and green tea.
Cha no yu – wakaru Seimei no gensoku,

Cha no yu, wakaru Seimei no yakusoku.
(Hot water of tea – to understand

The source of life. Hot water of tea – to understand

The promise of life.)